LIVE FROM TEXAS DEATH ROW - REALITY CHECK

I came from Houston TX, lived in the Bloodly 5th (nickname) - a place where drugs were sold, human life wasn't worth one red cert. Being a hustler was a way to survive in the ghetto. For every city or country town has a ghetto, some are worster than others. In life one must make an intelligent decision in order to survive within this unjust world Gangsterismn isn't the answer to ones problems; it only causes more problems amongst our people, the people that exist in this world regardless of race, color and creed.

This brief missive is to attempt to reach out to other young people in this world. I ain't getting one red cent for writing this, I'm a brother trying to reach out to other young people as 1 owe a lot to the human race as a whole. I have nephews and nieces and I want them to know that their uncle made a difference within this world.

I ended up on Death row because I wanted to be a gangster. I was overwhelmed by the gangster life style. I wanted everything in life that was quick and easy money, I didn't want to work for a living. I wanted to rob, steal, cheat, con folks and hustle folks for their hard earned money. I felt it was my world and I could do what I wanted to regardless of the situation at hand because I thought within the deepest core of my heart, I would never be caught My life changed in the wee small hours of July 4,1985. I went to rob a man. My sole purpose being to get his money nothing more and nothing less, but the man died from a fatal gun shot. I never intended to kill anyone, things got out of hand. I truthfully say it was an accident however, 12 jurors in my case did not see it as an accident they felt I was a cold blooded killer that needed to die.

But regardless of the label that the State attempts to put on my being, I know within the deepest core of my heart that I am not a killer, but a human being that made a mistake when I was aged 17. I can appreciate life to its fullest because I am on death row. yes I have a lot of bitterness towards the system and it's unjust ways but 1 keep a positive attitude through all events in life, even though the odds are stacked-against me.

See we both are in the same situation - the odds are stacked against all you young people too, because the system wants you in their prisons and wants to throw away the key but I want to even it up just a little bit. I care about you, because you are our future. I hate hearing on the news that another young one is coming to death row for killing and robbing someone, it's just not fair for me to sit on my butt and not give you a reality check. One can look into the eyes of the humans that exist on Death row and see the fear in their eyes. Not fear of dying but the fear of how can I prepare my love ones, family, friends, comrades for what's to take place in our life for everyone's life will change once one comes to death row.

The friends you thought you had don't exist no more, now you are begging for family love, a letter here a letter there, a visit here and a visit there, these are the things that become extremely important in prison. These are the things that keeps ones being strong, without the love and support from the outside world, life becomes meaningless and human beings do foolish things like attempt to take their own life, go insane, be broke down like a double barrel shotgun. One is locked in a cage 23 hours a day depending on what level you are on. One is treated like trash, shit, you are not a human being when you exist behind the walls of death, you are worthless in the eyes of most that works in this establishment, only the strong can survive it's more of a mental thing than a physical thing. For one can truly appreciate life when one is behind prison walls, you may think it's a joke and things can't be that hard behind the walls of death but life on death row is extremely hard for any person; now others may tell you a different tale but I am speaking the truth!!

Things worth having are worth working for, that other stuffis not the right way to obtain things you want in life, if you desire to steal, rob murder etc it will take your freedom away from you, then you may be sitting in this same situation I am in. I'm keeping it real!

I could try and tell you this or that but it's not necessary - read my words, I want you to feel the power of the words in which I have wrote because it's all about realism nothing more and nothing less. For all life is precious and so is yours. If I can save one young person's life by writing this letter, I feel I have done my job, because you young people are the future it's not about me or this or that, it's about you!

Go to your room and enclose your self solely to your room for a whole week. Come from school and go straight to your room, no friends, no TV, no phone, just your radio, no CD, no computer, only a regular typewriter and some food and your 3 meals a day. After doing this ask yourself would you truly enjoy doing this for 6 or 7 or 8 years on a regular basis and this is for a level 1, which happens to be the highest level on the row. Oh 1 forgot you get one hour of recreation in your backyard by yourself, sounds like great fun huh? This is reality on death row and this isn't a game either, ones life is at stake every single day, death is as real as the air that one breathes believe me it's not a mendacity.

If one desires to reach me you can do so at this address:

FOR MOST OF US TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED;  NOT REALIZING JUST HOW PRECIOUS LIFE IS UNTIL WE ARE FACE WITH A REALITY CHECK !!

EVEN THOUGH I LIVE/EXIST WITHIN THE WALLS OF DEATH I ALWAYS LIVE/EXIST FOR THAT PRECIOUS MOMENT BECAUSE I TRULY UNDERSTAND TOMORROW AIN'T PROMISED TO ANYONE. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THIS TO BE A FACT 1 NEVER PONDER ABOUT IT, BECAUSE I KNOW WITHOUT ANY DOUBT WHEN IT'S MY TIME TO DEPART AND GO AND MEET MY CREATOR I SHALL GO AND NOBODY WITHIN THIS UNJUST WORLD CAN SAVE ME.

THE REASON WHY I WRITE THIS PARTICULAR MISSIVE IS TO ALERT YOU ALL THAT DEATH IS REAL/ ONE MOMENT YOU CAN BE CONVERSING KITH A FRIEND, LOVE ONES ETC, THEN THE NEXT MOMENT YOU ARE LAYING LIFELESS IN THE MIDDLE OF YOUR FLOOR. FOR I AM THE FIRST TO ADMIT I  AIN'T A RELIGIOUS FREAK, BUT I DO FULLY UNDERSTAND THERE'S A MORE POWERFUL FORCE HITHIN THIS UNIVERSE THAN MANII SO I OFTEN GET In DFOH M2 KNEES AND GIVE THANKS FOR BEING ALIVE, BEING ABLE TO SEE ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY.

CALVIN MCGEE AKA KB LEFT US ON FEB 1,2004. I DON'T KNOW THE DETAILS OF HIS DEATH, BUT I ASSUME IT WAS A HEART ATTACK. I LIVED /EXIST ON THE SAME POD HE WAS ON , HE LIVED ON ONE ROW AND I LIVE -D ON TWO ROW. KB WAS/IS A VERY LIKABLE GUY, HE ALWAYS HAD A SMILE UPON HIS LOVELY FACE AND HE LOVED TO JOKE WITH US GUYS. HE WAS A VERY RESPECTFUL YOUNG MAN AND HAD ALOT OF PRIDE, DIGNITY AND PRINCIPLES ABOUT HIMSELF. HE ALWAYS FELT IS WAS HIS JOB TO  BETTER THE WORLD THROUGH HIS CHRISTIAN BELIEFS. HE HAS ALWAYS WILLING TO LEND A HELPING HAND AND WOULD GIVE HIS LAST TO ASSIST SOMEONE IN NEED. HE HAS NEVER A SELFISH PERSON AND THAT MADE HIM A VERY UNIQUE INDIVIDUAL. KB YOU WILL BE MISS AND I APPRECIATE  ALL THE DISCUSSION HE HAD YOU TAUGHT ME A FEW THINGS LIL BROTHER.

KB YOU LEFT THIS WORLD IN A GREAT WAY, FOR THIS SANGUINARY ESTABLISHMENT WASN'T ABLE TO STRAP YOU DOWN LIKE AN ANIMAL AND MURDER TOO. IF I HAD TO LEAVE THIS PLANET I TRULY HOPE THE  CREATOR SEES FIT TO TAKE MY LIFE AHAY BY NATURAL CAUSES.

IN CONCLUSION I WANT ALL CALVIN MCGEE FAMILY, FRIENDS, TO KNOW HE IS A GREAT PERSON AND HE WON'T BE FORGOTTEN. ALL MY RESPECT AND LOVE GOES OUT TO YOU ALL. YOU ARE REMEMBERED KB !!!

WRITTEN BY: ZULU WARRIOR KING ICY RED

AM I HUMAN ?

I exist  within the walls of death, my strong voice sounds like a baby crying for a bottle at feeding time; no one knows the baby is hungry not even the mother. Because she’s unaware the baby is hungry, crying.

For I am that same baby that exists within the walls of death, but my cries are for humanity to know that I, Jimmy Jackson breathe as you do, sleep as you do, cry as you do, laugh as you do! Even though I exist within this unjust racist, sadistic, savage world I am not inanimate! For I have robbed, does that make me lifeless, less than human? I have stolen; does that make me lifeless, less than human? I have sold drugs; does that make me lifeless, less than human? I was a male prostitute; does that make me lifeless, less than human? For I have killed; does that make me lifeless, less than human?

I personally don’t know what your answers are to the above questions, but I am a human and nothing can change me from human. For we have all sinned and asked the Creator for forgiveness for he (the Creator) only has the power to give life and take it away, for no man has that right. When one of the officers, pigs looks at me most smile in my face but talk a lot of stuff behind my back but they know the mentality of a warrior. I do have a Zulu Warrior mentality, which gives me strength to manifest to my highest evolution.

For I was only a child when I got this capital murder case at the immature age of 17 and I was a human then and I’m a human now. I have matured from boyhood to manhood and now I truly can comprehend how this plantation works against all people whether they are white, black, brown, yellow etc. Our voices must be heard!

We are humans that exist on Death Row, and we need love, compassion and understanding. For I only exist within the walls of death, I live through the stroke of my pen. Never judge an author by the book cover. Open up the book and read his words, for I want my words to have an everlasting effect upon your being, because I am human and so are you. I ask you to come into my life existence and allow me, Jimmy Jackson to take you on a journey of compassion, a journey of love, a journey of life and most importan